Why am I not an atheist....
For all my parents intentions I should be an atheist...that's what I was taught. Not a hatred of religion but the idea that "we" are better and smarter and more accomplished because we don't believe in any GOD, but we believe in certain humanistic rights, whose rules are very similar to those of the religions my parents left behind. But we are better.
I never felt better, with all their boozing and pills and fighting. But I never let that bring me to a GOD. No God came in the back door, but to GOD all doors into our soul are front doors. GOD came in with TM of all things - Transcendental Meditation that I learned when I was fifteen and suffering deeply emotionally, and most from one constant tension headache I had had since seventh grade.
I learned TM and the headache went. I continued meditating and life got better; something really profound was also happening, GOD had found me! My spiritual eyes and ears were opening. For me it was a real experience...within a year I was seeing angels, yes some had wings, seeing the Divine and hearing the Divine, and in two years I was no one's little atheist in training anymore.
I embrace the Divine as I experience the Divine - I embrace Jesus Christ as I experience HIM in my life daily...I embrace Shirdi Sai Baba as an amazing Divine force that cares not who or what we are or have been.
Often when I am in Church ( Marble Collegiate Church) I feel and see HIM - Jesus - not in my mind and not in the pews, but as a very real living presence, a true mystical experience.
It is not us or our earthly parents who chooses our GOD for us, but our true Father who chooses us for HIM. And thank God for that, otherwise I would still be an atheist.