Sunday, September 14, 2014
I have just been accepted into the M.Div. (Master of Divinity) program at New Brunswick Theological Seminary. Now I will truly be following in the footsteps of my ancestors, my 9th Great Grandfather, Rev. Johannes Theodorus Polheim - first Pastor of the Flatbush Reformed Church in 1654, and Rev. Cornelius Cozine, my 6th Great Grandfather, Pastor to the Low Dutch Colony at Conewago, PA from 1772 till his death in 1788.
I have felt this pull for several years now.
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
Just got an email from his teacher - they have a program called B.Y.O.D. - Bring Your Own Device - and he needs a Laptop - which he will leave at school.
Does anyone have a used Windows Laptop w/WiFi you no longer want/need? (That hopefully can hold a charge).
I'll pay shipping. Please repost if you can. If there are a few - then those could be donated to the class.
email me at firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Why am I not an atheist....
For all my parents intentions I should be an atheist...that's what I was taught. Not a hatred of religion but the idea that "we" are better and smarter and more accomplished because we don't believe in any GOD, but we believe in certain humanistic rights, whose rules are very similar to those of the religions my parents left behind. But we are better.
I never felt better, with all their boozing and pills and fighting. But I never let that bring me to a GOD. No God came in the back door, but to GOD all doors into our soul are front doors. GOD came in with TM of all things - Transcendental Meditation that I learned when I was fifteen and suffering deeply emotionally, and most from one constant tension headache I had had since seventh grade.
I learned TM and the headache went. I continued meditating and life got better; something really profound was also happening, GOD had found me! My spiritual eyes and ears were opening. For me it was a real experience...within a year I was seeing angels, yes some had wings, seeing the Divine and hearing the Divine, and in two years I was no one's little atheist in training anymore.
I embrace the Divine as I experience the Divine - I embrace Jesus Christ as I experience HIM in my life daily...I embrace Shirdi Sai Baba as an amazing Divine force that cares not who or what we are or have been.
Often when I am in Church ( Marble Collegiate Church) I feel and see HIM - Jesus - not in my mind and not in the pews, but as a very real living presence, a true mystical experience.
It is not us or our earthly parents who chooses our GOD for us, but our true Father who chooses us for HIM. And thank God for that, otherwise I would still be an atheist.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
this is one of the things that I see when I heal.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
This is very similar to the work and teaching of Jesus, who lived as a Jewish Reformer, not preaching a new religion, but offering new way for man to know GOD and experience the living waters.
I am blessed to be a member of the Reformed Church, where I try to attend services twice a week.
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Right now in order to serve the maximum number of kids, we are focusing on $5.00 or two ride MetroCards (they can be refilled), which we buy in bulk orders of fifty each. In the future we plan to provide four or ten ride metro cards, which must be purchased in sets of fifty.
Since we purchase MetroCards in minimum quantities 50 cards for $250 from the MTA, whenever we have a minimum of $250 we initialize a purchase order, which takes about two weeks to receive.
Please help me with this - just a $5.00 donation buys enough for two subways rides. And helps keep a kid safe. Click Here!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
The difficulty in resolving a money karma issue is often money, or it's lack. All my processes require some fee exchange, even if its only one dollar, still something. But to resolve a money issue, requires a "leap of faith". Someone has to give exactly the thing they don't feel they have, they have to really "trust" in the Divine. And often this is after so many things have gone "wrong" in someone's life too. So most people don't make that leap.
Oh, I have had wealthy clients come to me to change things in their business world, and that has worked well. The rich get richer phenomena. Getting contracts signed, selling land, making the buyer materialize. Of course this does not mean selling something for twice it's value, just providing the energy to make what is needed to happen.
But today I found out, that one of the few "solve my money problems" process I have ever did, actually worked. Of course they did pay, and they were given the ability to pay slightly less then the stated fee, but they had to really dig to come up with that. I was contacted by a devotee of Shirdi Sai Baba, Champa Mistry from Leicestershire, UK in 2011 and she needed help with her financial life, so we did the work for her.
I know she has had ups and downs since then, and there are still bumps in the road, but this is her testimonial quote from today:
"I was a emotional wreck. My life has turned had tuned upside down, we had no money, no job we suffered. I asked evananda for help - within a very short period of time our life got better. I STARTED EARNING GOOD MONEY things got paid, Its as though it was a testin time but whatever you did it worked."She has contacted me for additional work, to help with some bumpiness, and I will continue to work for her with the Divine Energy of Baba.
Sunday, June 24, 2012
It is only the kama desire that is strong enough to make a smart woman do stupid things. Or a smart man. It is kama – even if unfulfilled or unrealized – that has this seeming unseen power to hold people in “bad” relationships. It is only after someone understands the nature of kama – that it is equally creative and destructive – that they are able to escape the influence of kama to some extent.
Kama – sexual desire – is not something to be toyed with or trivialzed – it is more powerful than our own ego. While we may believe we have it under control – kama is more powerful and will always control us.
It is important to let go of the illusion of control that sex gives us at certain points in our life. Because it is always the other way around.
Many relationships that are ruled by kama are karmic in nature. It is likely an unfulfilled desire from a past life – this is especially true whenever we feel a strong connection. Just because you feel that strong attachment, does not mean it is a good idea to have sex with that person. That is how the kama binds us more strongly against all reason and against our own stated moral ideals.
Women are more likely than men to seek help or understanding from healers, psychics and friends for relationship issues. Men though have just as many or more fucked up problems with the girls they desire, lust after and bed.
Often a guy has a clear idea that his girlfriend or wife is cheating on him, but because of all his own kama and pain, he chooses to look away from what is right there. To be a “man” and deal with it. Men imagine that if they change something, she will be faithful, that if they improve their sex (kama) lives with that partner, the problem will resolve. Of course that never happens, as the problem – the sex – kama – addiction is too strong for both partners. The female who wants it over and over again from another and the male who “loves” her – but it is only kama playing on both of them.
But it is women who suffer more accutely because of this. Heartbreak is far more devestating to women than to men. I see so many broken hearted women who once had everything with a guy and when it went away they can’t de-attach, and they cling to that guy or an even worst version to try to get back to the happiness they may never know again.
By breaking the illusion of kama people can break out of the endless cyle of karma that causes pain over and over in this life and future lives.
By breaking the illusion of kama I do not mean to imply that sex is bad or should be avoided at all. But rather understand what is really happening in your life. That that “soul mate” you “love” so much, is really just a kama addiction from a past life.
My free advice: First move away from the relationship that is causing pain – confusion etc… and then try to understand how kama drives us to make the same mistakes over and over again. Be brutally honest with yourself and your friends about your secrets, your kama and then maybe it is possible to be freed from a continued cycle of pain, or causing other people pain.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Mostly I am working with the energy of Shirdi Sai Baba, but from time to time I am called to work with Jesus. The following is written by a student of mine, Brea Baines, and recounts her recent experience with my healing work and Jesus.
"My entire life, I'd always had this basic fear of 'accepting' or connecting to Jesus, and a distinct refusal/inability to trust him or any knowledge that had to do with him. When I was really young, I didn't question this; I just assumed I was not aligned with Christianity and that was that. However, once my spiritual & psychic abilities began to awaken, I could no longer deny the bizarre (and unexplainable) feelings I had toward Christianity. For example, my first panic attack occurred at the Vatican when I was 13. Immediately upon entering, I had to fight so hard to keep from losing all control - I felt like my body was on fire, I couldn't breathe, my chest was constricting... it took everything I had not to faint, or fall down & burst into tears. Even after that incident, I didn't understand what was going on. I thought my panic attack was due to the overwhelming number of people and energies in the place.
Fast forward a few years, to age 17: this is when I had a Kundalini awakening, which - aside from causing many other unfathomable experiences - gave me the deep knowing that I had a past life with Jesus. Not much else emerged from that deep knowing, besides the feeling that I had been very close to him.
Now, at age 19, I can finally say I understand these past issues that have caused me a great deal of pain, but it is all because of Evan's connection to Divine Souls & Masters like Jesus. A few weeks ago, I began to have very vague, imprecise visions of my past life with Jesus, so I brought them to Evan's attention. Stronger than the visions themselves were the emotions attached to the past life. I told Evan what I felt, and he validated my emotions by piecing together the puzzle of that past life (via clear visions/knowledge that I was not yet able to access).
Once THAT mystery was solved, I then felt anger: toward Jesus, and also toward the fact that I was not in complete harmony with his energy. It was as though I wanted to resolve the 'conflict' I felt, or heal the split/separation between us. I didn't say any of this to Evan, though; I just expressed how angry I was. But in the middle of my ranting, Evan asked if I had ever seen his 'Jesus rock,' a power object which is imbued with the Divine energy of Jesus. I didn't remember if I had ever seen it or not. Evan took it out and asked if I wanted to experience its energy. Without thinking, I said, "sure, why not?" Evan placed the Jesus rock on my forehead, and immediately, I felt an ENORMOUS wave of love and energy flow from my crown chakra down through the rest of my chakras. After about 5 seconds, my body involuntarily jolted away from the rock, and I felt a quick 'zap' of energy in my third eye, where the rock had been. I just stared at Evan, wordless. I had never felt ANYTHING like that in my life! Suddenly, so many things made sense; I felt Divine Love and Power, I felt clarity and understanding, and I felt light, as if useless things had been taken out of me, things I had been trying to remove for a long time. I said to Evan, "I finally understand what Jesus does, and how that differs from Baba" - because I have a clear, unbreakable connection with Shirdi Sai Baba, and I've never had any problem understanding/relating to his energy and magic and 'Lila' (Divine Play). Baba is a powerful Master - of the entire Universe - and he can make OTHERS become powerful Masters like him. But he makes you work really hard to get there. He is Truth. Yes, he is Love too, but that's because Love is only one part of Truth. Truth is everything; it is the Absolute. And merging with the Absolute endows one with the unlimited Power of the Absolute. One's entire ego & human conditioning must be broken/destroyed in order to become Divine in that way. The ego is limited; the Divine is not. Thus Baba's goal - when people ask for enlightenment - is to remove ALL human qualities and limitations and replace them with infinite, Divine Power. This is a process, as you cannot become Divine without first knowing your karma and atoning for it. This is why austerity practices are so important for those who seek enlightenment.
Jesus, on the other hand, balances Baba's work. Before my experience with the Jesus rock, I had been undergoing relentless 'destruction' (of my human ego and everything I've ever known) at Baba's hand. I love Baba's method, though. It's the fast track, and it's kind of like "no pain, no gain." Except sometimes you don't feel like you'll ever experience the Heaven you're looking for; you just feel like disappearing and never existing again. But, for me, that pain is worth it.
Now Jesus has provided me with a whole new experience (the Divine is good at doing that!), and this experience complements my other experience, that being Baba's grace. Jesus gives us the Absolute through Divine Love & selflessness. Without these aspects, the Absolute would be incomplete (obviously), and unlimited Power would not exist. Unlimited Power is the result of Divine Love & selflessness. Jesus resonates with pure, unconditional Love; anyone can reach him through this channel. He can fulfill any and all desires, and this is a direct result of his Divine Love."
I can't say that everyone will have the same experience as Brea, but everyone who has had the opportunity to receive the direct blessing of Jesus through the "Jesus Rock", has felt it to be a unique and life affirming event.
Sunday, March 18, 2012
After waiting for six months, finally I had my almost fifteen minutes of fame. My Big Redneck Vacation episode came and went last weekend with little fanfare and I still don't know what to make of the show. You can view the full episode here - Redneck Vacation episode 108.
It was a wonderful opportunity for 800,000 viewers to experience a puja to Shirdi Sai Baba the Indian Saint. Also, later in the show I was able to teach the women Baba's mantra, "Om Sai Sri Sai Jai Jai Sai." I was really happy that the producers kept both of these scenes in the show, that was what was important for me. So much else was edited out, but that was fine.
During the filming of my portion of My Big Redneck Vacation, (a CMT reality show), the cameras were on all the time, except when the director said cut, and then sent all the men downstairs. That was the "set-up", the creation of artificial conflict that reality television thrives on.
The "reality" was that everyone, men and women in the family, were very happy during the healing that I did with them. Besides giving a black rock for protection to one of the men, I also gave everyone either rudraksha bead or crystal necklaces or bracelets or amulets. In the scenes downstairs the men can be seen still wearing their amulets and beads. The TV "reality" was that only the women liked what I was doing and the men had to get their womenfolk back to their Redneck roots. Which they did some days later by pouring beer on them and throwing mud on them, which by what we see on TV, everyone enjoyed.
If I had it to do over, there is very little I would change. I was able to facilitate Shirdi Sai Baba's energy flowing out to everyone who watched the show, everyone watching received some level of healing, whether they knew it or not... So that was good... that was Divine.