On Heartbreak and Kama Energy

Probably the most importnant thing I try to impress on my clients is that they are not so much in a “karmic loop” but rather caught in their own kama – desire. Think Kama Sutras. That kama – or sexual desire is the underlying energy that is responsible for the continuation of this creation, or really I should say, illusion. Known in the Vedas as Maya, the illusion created by the Divine Mother.

It is only the kama desire that is strong enough to make a smart woman do stupid things. Or a smart man. It is kama – even if unfulfilled or unrealized – that has this seeming unseen power to hold people in “bad” relationships. It is only after someone understands the nature of kama – that it is equally creative and destructive – that they are able to escape the influence of kama to some extent.

Kama – sexual desire – is not something to be toyed with or trivialzed – it is more powerful than our own ego. While we may believe we have it under control – kama is more powerful and will always control us.

It is important to let go of the illusion of control that sex gives us at certain points in our life. Because it is always the other way around.

Many relationships that are ruled by kama are karmic in nature. It is likely an unfulfilled desire from a past life – this is especially true whenever we feel a strong connection. Just because you feel that strong attachment, does not mean it is a good idea to have sex with that person. That is how the kama binds us more strongly against all reason and against our own stated moral ideals.

Women are more likely than men to seek help or understanding from healers, psychics and friends for relationship issues. Men though have just as many or more fucked up problems with the girls they desire, lust after and bed.

Often a guy has a clear idea that his girlfriend or wife is cheating on him, but because of all his own kama and pain, he chooses to look away from what is right there. To be a “man” and deal with it. Men imagine that if they change something, she will be faithful, that if they improve their sex (kama) lives with that partner, the problem will resolve. Of course that never happens, as the problem – the sex – kama – addiction is too strong for both partners. The female who wants it over and over again from another and the male who “loves” her – but it is only kama playing on both of them.

But it is women who suffer more accutely because of this. Heartbreak is far more devestating to women than to men. I see so many broken hearted women who once had everything with a guy and when it went away they can’t de-attach, and they cling to that guy or an even worst version to try to get back to the happiness they may never know again.

By breaking the illusion of kama people can break out of the endless cyle of karma that causes pain over and over in this life and future lives.

By breaking the illusion of kama I do not mean to imply that sex is bad or should be avoided at all. But rather understand what is really happening in your life. That that “soul mate” you “love” so much, is really just a kama addiction from a past life.

My free advice: First move away from the relationship that is causing pain – confusion etc… and then try to understand how kama drives us to make the same mistakes over and over again. Be brutally honest with yourself and your friends about your secrets, your kama and then maybe it is possible to be freed from a continued cycle of pain, or causing other people pain.

Making a connection to Jesus

Mostly I am working with the energy of Shirdi Sai Baba, but from time to time I am called to work with Jesus. The following is written by a student of mine, Brea Baines, and recounts her recent experience with my healing work and Jesus.

"My entire life, I'd always had this basic fear of 'accepting' or connecting to Jesus, and a distinct refusal/inability to trust him or any knowledge that had to do with him. When I was really young, I didn't question this; I just assumed I was not aligned with Christianity and that was that. However, once my spiritual & psychic abilities began to awaken, I could no longer deny the bizarre (and unexplainable) feelings I had toward Christianity. For example, my first panic attack occurred at the Vatican when I was 13. Immediately upon entering, I had to fight so hard to keep from losing all control - I felt like my body was on fire, I couldn't breathe, my chest was constricting... it took everything I had not to faint, or fall down & burst into tears. Even after that incident, I didn't understand what was going on. I thought my panic attack was due to the overwhelming number of people and energies in the place.

Fast forward a few years, to age 17: this is when I had a Kundalini awakening, which - aside from causing many other unfathomable experiences - gave me the deep knowing that I had a past life with Jesus. Not much else emerged from that deep knowing, besides the feeling that I had been very close to him.

Now, at age 19, I can finally say I understand these past issues that have caused me a great deal of pain, but it is all because of Evan's connection to Divine Souls & Masters like Jesus. A few weeks ago, I began to have very vague, imprecise visions of my past life with Jesus, so I brought them to Evan's attention. Stronger than the visions themselves were the emotions attached to the past life. I told Evan what I felt, and he validated my emotions by piecing together the puzzle of that past life (via clear visions/knowledge that I was not yet able to access).

Once THAT mystery was solved, I then felt anger: toward Jesus, and also toward the fact that I was not in complete harmony with his energy. It was as though I wanted to resolve the 'conflict' I felt, or heal the split/separation between us. I didn't say any of this to Evan, though; I just expressed how angry I was. But in the middle of my ranting, Evan asked if I had ever seen his 'Jesus rock,' a power object which is imbued with the Divine energy of Jesus. I didn't remember if I had ever seen it or not. Evan took it out and asked if I wanted to experience its energy. Without thinking, I said, "sure, why not?" Evan placed the Jesus rock on my forehead, and immediately, I felt an ENORMOUS wave of love and energy flow from my crown chakra down through the rest of my chakras. After about 5 seconds, my body involuntarily jolted away from the rock, and I felt a quick 'zap' of energy in my third eye, where the rock had been. I just stared at Evan, wordless. I had never felt ANYTHING like that in my life! Suddenly, so many things made sense; I felt Divine Love and Power, I felt clarity and understanding, and I felt light, as if useless things had been taken out of me, things I had been trying to remove for a long time. I said to Evan, "I finally understand what Jesus does, and how that differs from Baba" - because I have a clear, unbreakable connection with Shirdi Sai Baba, and I've never had any problem understanding/relating to his energy and magic and 'Lila' (Divine Play). Baba is a powerful Master - of the entire Universe - and he can make OTHERS become powerful Masters like him. But he makes you work really hard to get there. He is Truth. Yes, he is Love too, but that's because Love is only one part of Truth. Truth is everything; it is the Absolute. And merging with the Absolute endows one with the unlimited Power of the Absolute. One's entire ego & human conditioning must be broken/destroyed in order to become Divine in that way. The ego is limited; the Divine is not. Thus Baba's goal - when people ask for enlightenment - is to remove ALL human qualities and limitations and replace them with infinite, Divine Power. This is a process, as you cannot become Divine without first knowing your karma and atoning for it. This is why austerity practices are so important for those who seek enlightenment.

Jesus, on the other hand, balances Baba's work. Before my experience with the Jesus rock, I had been undergoing relentless 'destruction' (of my human ego and everything I've ever known) at Baba's hand. I love Baba's method, though. It's the fast track, and it's kind of like "no pain, no gain." Except sometimes you don't feel like you'll ever experience the Heaven you're looking for; you just feel like disappearing and never existing again. But, for me, that pain is worth it.

Now Jesus has provided me with a whole new experience (the Divine is good at doing that!), and this experience complements my other experience, that being Baba's grace. Jesus gives us the Absolute through Divine Love & selflessness. Without these aspects, the Absolute would be incomplete (obviously), and unlimited Power would not exist. Unlimited Power is the result of Divine Love & selflessness. Jesus resonates with pure, unconditional Love; anyone can reach him through this channel. He can fulfill any and all desires, and this is a direct result of his Divine Love."

I can't say that everyone will have the same experience as Brea, but everyone who has had the opportunity to receive the direct blessing of Jesus through the "Jesus Rock", has felt it to be a unique and life affirming event.

My 15 Minutes of Fame Healing on Redneck Vacation

After waiting for six months, finally I had my almost fifteen minutes of fame. My Big Redneck Vacation episode came and went last weekend with little fanfare and I still don't know what to make of the show. You can view the full episode here - Redneck Vacation episode 108.

It was a wonderful opportunity for 800,000 viewers to experience a puja to Shirdi Sai Baba the Indian Saint. Also, later in the show I was able to teach the women Baba's mantra, "Om Sai Sri Sai Jai Jai Sai." I was really happy that the producers kept both of these scenes in the show, that was what was important for me. So much else was edited out, but that was fine.

During the filming of my portion of My Big Redneck Vacation, (a CMT reality show), the cameras were on all the time, except when the director said cut, and then sent all the men downstairs. That was the "set-up", the creation of artificial conflict that reality television thrives on.

The "reality" was that everyone, men and women in the family, were very happy during the healing that I did with them. Besides giving a black rock for protection to one of the men, I also gave everyone either rudraksha bead or crystal necklaces or bracelets or amulets. In the scenes downstairs the men can be seen still wearing their amulets and beads. The TV "reality" was that only the women liked what I was doing and the men had to get their womenfolk back to their Redneck roots. Which they did some days later by pouring beer on them and throwing mud on them, which by what we see on TV, everyone enjoyed.

If I had it to do over, there is very little I would change. I was able to facilitate Shirdi Sai Baba's energy flowing out to everyone who watched the show, everyone watching received some level of healing, whether they knew it or not... So that was good... that was Divine.

"I'm a little bit psychic" - Redneck Vacation

Last year I got a call from a television production company, Pink Sneakers Productions, based out of Miami. They were going to be filming a reality series in The Hamptons in the summer and they were looking for a healer for one episode. Of course, without thinking I volunteered. They came to the house and filmed me in a kind of interview, and they said they would get back to me. I then pretty much forgot about it. Or tried to anyway. Just thinking, "if Shirdi Sai Baba wants it, then it will be."

Well, eventually they called and they wanted to use me, and was I still up for it? "Hell Yes!", as they might say on the show. The day of the filming came and the guy from Pink Sneakers called and said there was delay, and they would see me maybe in a week. I started to think, "is this going to happen or what"? The waiting was crazy. Yes, it did happen. The show is now on the air, it is MY BIG REDNECK VACATION, on CMT. Saturdays at 9:30pm and then repeated many times during the week. Its the story of a Big down-home Louisiana family that rents a house in the Hamptons, East Hampton to be exact. I am the healer / Guru called upon by the family as they get ready for a wedding.

I caught a glimpse of myself on last night's episode, a promo for next Saturday night, when I am on. It was weird, seeing myself. But I guess that is how people feel seeing themselves on TV for the first time. I am going to be healing with Baba's Energy before a National audience. They say this series is CMTs highest rated ever.

The synopsis has me a bit nervous though;

The girls get motivated to adopt the Hamptons healthy living lifestyle in an effort to shape up for the up-coming wedding. They seem to lose their minds as they attempt to drag their men to yoga, tennis, and tea parties. But when a guru stops by, the guys decide to take matters into their own hands to win their women folk back with a redneck baptism.

Here is the link where you can read more about it: http://www.cmt.com/show/my_big_redneck_vacation/series.jhtml

Tune in next week and let me know how I did.

Lifting Heartbreak

Medical science and the pharmaceutical industry has made major advances in the last 20 years. There are new medicines for cancer and AIDS and diabetes. But one area there has been no pill or drug created for is heartbreak.

In the healing work that I do, one of the first areas that is addressed is heartbreak.

Heartbreak as Root Cause of Sickness

There are seven energy centers in the body, known as the chakras, running in a central energetic channel in our body. Starting at the base or Root Chakra, then the next is the navel or some think of it as the "sex" chakra, to the Solar Plexus the seat of our will, next Heart Chakra and then the throat, and between the eyes is the Third Eye, and at the top of the head is the Crown.

The most important for our purposes is the Heart Chakra, it is through this that we are energetically linked to everyone we know. When a child is born, immediately there is a link energetically between mother and child at the Heart Chakra.

Most important are parents, children, siblings, and of course romantic interests and partners. Because of breaks that occur or may appear in relationships, there is the potential for a lot of problems to flow to the heart. So a lot of damage does occur here in heart chakra. Each heartbreak is like a killing, like a small killing sometimes, the pains we all know and then want to forget.

Heartbreak Layered on Heartbreak

The first heartbreaks, somehow that come in early childhood, most recover from. But sometimes, I see that the energy moves in an unhealthy way from the heart center into other areas. Often in childhood, the energy is shifted into the head, the Sixth Chakra, the Third Eye becomes blinded, and confusion sets in. The child begins to have a lot of emotional and concentration and focusing issues.

Heartbreak cuts our creativity and becomes eventually disease. While at first, most people are getting over or recovering from heartbreaks, sometimes a heartbreak comes and its just too much to recover from. Heartbreaks on top of old heartbreaks become depression and other disease. This is where so much of illness and disease comes from. Not just heart disease, but also cancers and other diseases are often found in people who have received big shocks to the heart.

I have had the honor of working with over 2,000 clients, many of them remote in other countries, and communicating just by email, also many in-person clients. So many times, I find that the root cause of whatever the problem is, comes back to some heartbreak. Many times these heartbreaks can become like giant fears. So always the first thing I am doing is taking the fear and the heartbreak.

Once that real physical pain of heartbreak goes, there is so much relief.